After a
routine skin check by my dermatologist yesterday, most of them have now been flash
frozen via cryosurgery and will begin to slough off in coming days. This
process involved nothing more than having them sprayed with liquid nitrogen. This
should relieve some of itching caused by ipi that I expect to be living with for
weeks to come.
While I feel
very much at ease in my skin in the metaphorical sense, the skin inside which I
actually live gives me grief. That's what comes with having melanoma. It’s been more than six months since I last found a subcutaneous
metastasis, so that’s good news. For more than two years up until the cancer spread to my brain it was my skin that concerned me most as a source of my
health problems.
Now, thanks
to ipi, the skin mets have taken a vacation. In exchange—and cancer treatments
are always about tradeoffs—I deal with rash, itchiness and keratoses that get
picked at in my sleep. While I’m at heightened risk for another primary melanoma
and/or other, less dangerous forms of skin cancer, I’ve so far avoided that
scenario. Rashy skin will make you crazy, but it doesn’t kill or disfigure.
I get my
final ipi infusion a week from Friday, after which I expect gradual relief from
the various side-effects that have grounded me over the last month or so. Physical
fatigue hasn’t been too big a deal, as I’ve been able to run most days since I
started treatment. The mental fog persists, with radiation likely as much to
blame as ipi. My appetite has improved slightly and my weight loss has finally
plateaued. Eating meals remain an exercise in frustration, however, as my dry
mouth makes almost all food unappetizing. Believe it or not, there is such a
thing as artificial saliva but it’s not a product that’s ever going to win a
consumer choice award.
I’m
encouraged to know that I’ve probably bottomed out from my combined rad-ipi
therapy regimen. It could have been so much worse. We’ll be having a low-key
Thanksgiving this year, with no one more thankful than me for what I hope is a
turkey dinner that I can eat—without having to use fake spit.
2 comments:
Peter, this sounds every bit a Job experience. My prayer is you experience relief soon and enjoy your turkey dinner!
Your lust for life has always inspired me, Peter. I hope it returns along with your appetite in time for Thanksgiving .. I'll be thinking of you here in Boise.
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